Monday, January 28, 2013

Voices (Sunday of Despair)

"Voices (Sunday of Despair)" is a song that has, over the years, been lost, found and utterly transformed. Three of these changes stand out as definitive. The first was the moment that the two parts of the song fit together, when the madness of the first part sort of melded with the melancholy of the second. The second moment was when the second part of the song became especially relevant to a friend of ours, who we have had the privilege of playing with many years ago - which has really shaped what the song means to us. And the third was with Varun Murali, who very fortunately pushed for a final rewrite and brought out the insanity within.

Mixed and Mastered by Varun Murali of Swarathma.
Lead Vocals: Sruthi Vijayaraghavan
Lyrics and Backing Vocals: Manasi Saxena

she can almost see
her long forgotten dream
there's the desert and the see
and madness in between

to the paradise she's looking for
there's another road
no one here will watch her go
to the land of snow... where she

fits perfectly
with the madness in between
the road to paradise
paved with her screams

it's a cold morning in a blue december, a sunday of despair
she stands alone and will not live to remember how the wind tugged on her hair
the snowflakes swirl around her as she closes her eyes and fall
the cold creeps over her bones and heart and she may as well be dead to all...

she'll die alone on this quiet morning, where no one will find her
there's no one here to watch her go, no one to remind her
the snowflakes fall around her soon there will be nothing there
on this cold morning in a blue december, a sunday of despair...

Monday, January 21, 2013

Broken Wings

Presenting the second song on our EP!

"Broken Wings" could be about many things, from being generally rebellious, to being extremely alone... it's about everything from incredible freedom to finding great strength in being broken. Some things in recent times remind us that there is strength in being just that, broken and vulnerable...just as the phoenix is never as powerful when it is most vulnerable, dying and being reborn at the same time. 

Mixed and Mastered by Varun Murali of Swarathma. 
Lead Vocals and Lyrics: Manasi Saxena'
Backing Vocals : Sruthi Vijayaraghavana


please forgive the faith i have in you
i don't really think you will be true, to my
far-fetched ideas and expectations
all these hopes are based on dreams based on you

please believe me i know i'm a fool
i know i am blinded to the cruel and real
honest father, i don't like her
i'm just watching, i'm only passing through
i am searching, i'm trying to be you

it's not a moment, i am not frozen in time
i'm not singing, i just talk in lousy rhyme
i can see my big crime

people forgive these simple words i know
i don't really have a place to go tonight
with my crazy notions, windswept motions
would you, please not send me back tonight?
just let me sink into your light..

it's not forever it is only a moment or two
i'm not waiting i am not singing for you
but i'll wait forever for you

wake up (wake up)
cos everything's changed
grow up (grow up)
so you are not estranged
there's a world that's waiting to be hidden (by the sun)
there's a life out there that has only (just begun)
i'm forsaken... ooh, i'm forsaken,
but i'm not the one on the highway

with broken wings that you don't know can fly
you have learnt to love the word goodbye
here's my unrealistic affirmation 
that i'm living when i'm soaring in the sky
that tears can make my broken wings fly

it's not a story it's a dream, that never was
i'm not sleeping, i am not awake because
i'm asleep in your arms tonight

it's not forever it is only a moment or two
i'm not waiting i am not singing for you
but i'll wait forever for you

Monday, January 14, 2013

04-12

Black Crayon is both proud and atrociously happy to release "04-12", the first song on our EP! 

About the song: "04-12" is a song about a relationship gone awry, out of sync, no longer "in rhyme" - and about saying goodbye. It is named so because that was a date when something happened that we can no longer talk about. And for all you curious souls, guess away, but stay content.

Mixed and Mastered by Varun Murali of Swarathma. 
Lead Vocals: Sruthi Vijayaraghavan
Backing Vocals and Lyrics: Manasi Saxena

and here's to lonely nights 
when i would fight the emptiness within
and to those tears i cried 
to fill that hollow nothingness inside

we must weep
for all those hours we couldn't sleep
and all that time that is now gone
and how we didn't move on

let's drink to our foresight 
of how we'de hurt and ache so we didn't try
and all those pleasant times 
of song and laughter it's passing us by

before our eyes 
though we've been far too blind to see
been quite scared you and me
to think of all eternity

the songs we wrote together
the ones we've known forever
are out of rhyme
and all those dreams now broken
so many words unspoken
so many times

it's time to say goodbye
to hold back tears and smile and let you go
like being hung out to dry 
all wet but getting drier... 

don't you know? it's alright
i'm not sad though i must cry
for all those times i've let you go
i wish that i could see you grow